Lala's playmates on Hollywood Boulevard.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEENTH TO VENELYN & CHUIHAN.
I LOVE YOU TWO, MANY.

O-Level SPA Skill 3s
So I completely and utterly screwed the O-Level Chemistry today. I was so traumatised because i designed the ENTIRE EXPERIMENT ALL WRONG. As in, I didn't design it to even fit the topic that was given please. But Physics was all good, the entire class finished the paper by 30minutes.. And promptly fell asleep on the tables one by one. Like dominoes :D
HAHA. HAHA. HAHA. Okay, that was quite unnecessary {: But i thought it was quite cute!

After School
Tom-panged ChiLung's cab with Venelyn to Central & trained home to sleep. Felt damn effing tired today, and i have no idea why. Its as if there were 9-ton weights laid on my eyelids. Woke up thereafter and rushed down to meet him. Trained to Cityhall and spent the time walking @ the Esplanade, then @ Marina Square. Saw Yifang and Chuihan, then Elaine and Charmaine.
I thought it was quite funny, cause i was tired. And i was holding onto his hand with my head hanging down looking @ the floor. And all i remember was that he was talking about something but i wasn't really listening then i looked up and saw Charmaine's retarded ah-lian-wannabe pose with the pretty Elaine Tan smiling back at me. HAHAHA. (Sorrycharmaineistillloveyouokaykisskiss)
Ate @ Long Johns. Aaaand, i remember we talked about gays. And yuh, how come hot guys always turn gay? Its a waste, its unfair to the female population PLEASE. HAHA. And then, i spent the time laughing @ him because he couldn't screw on his tongue stud properly. Damn funny, i swear. I was restraining from bursting out into laughter whilst trying to screw it on for him.
Met Jolin and they trained over to Chinatown for his ankle appointment thingamajiggy. And i accidently trained all the way to Eunos, before realising, and training back to Chinese Gardens. ARGHARGHARGHARGHARGH.

My Dog
He ate a whole carrot. A big orange one. Uh-hummm.
I think he's actually a rabbit in disguise.

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Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Physics 1 MYE
Know what. It went surprisingly OKAY, considering the fact that when i was standing outside the lockers.. I realised i didn't remember ANY FORMULA AT ALL. Seriously! ChiLung had to show me all the summarised formulae in his handphone inbox -.-
Vans: HUH. WHAT IS " T " ?
Bryan & ChiLung: Period!
Vans: PERIOD? I THOUGHT PERIOD IS " P " ?
*silence and -.- looks @ me
Bryan & ChiLung: YA LA. YA LA. PERIOD IS P.
Kns luh. Then i distorted my face into one very angry/frustrated/desperate frown whilst they just laughed and laughed in sarcasm. Thanks ah guys. I really needed the extra stress. HOWEVER THATS BESIDE THE POINT, I FOUND THE PAPER OKAY. But its a bad thing, cause whenever i think a paper is okay.. I always flunk it. So... Whatever luh. I'll just assume the paper was REEEEEEEALLY bad.
*chants incoherently.

Irritance
On Sunday, upon waking up from the long trainride home, this bunch of complete and utter assholes of guys decided to follow me out of the train. Waiting for me outside Cheers, following me over the overhead bridge and even blocking my way down the staircase unless i gave them my number or something. Just imagine, I'm already so f* SLEEPY from just waking up, and i just want to get HOME to sleep somemore because my head hurt. And then this shit happens, I spent about 30seconds shouting @ the 2 guys who wouldn't let me crossover. And i couldnt turn back because the rest of them were behind me. Then it was raining, which means the main gate is open, so anyone without an access-card can walk in. I ran in, and some idiot started coming in also. I just shouted @ the security guard that i didn't know them and not to let them in. Then i ran away home.

Today!
Trained over to his house and the weirdest thing happened whilst i was on the NEL. This United World College guy walked over and left a folded slip of paper with his email address on the empty seat next to me O.O
Erm. Okay I think i'm supposed to like, add him. But nevermind. Anyway, trained over and @ the LRT platform I was still uneasy about something. Then he appeared to pick me up {: I was damn relieved. Haha. Watched "A Walk To Remember". Then after that, he went to meet the others @ Dhoby and i went home.

Lifehouse's Music Is Still The Best
Life works in a funny way, my Ipod was on shuffle today. And on the 7th song, it played this. Someone once gave me this song. And.. It kinda made me recollect and reflect on everything somehow.
When you come back down.
If you land on your feet,
I hope you find a way to make it back to me.
When you come around,
I’ll be there for you.
Don’t have to be alone with what you’re going through.
=/ I'm sorry for putting you through all the shit that happened. Thank you for forgiving me for being such a bitch time and again, and taking me back. I knew the final time, was the hardest for you. And thinking back, i can't believe what i did. And you deserved nothing close to that because you hung onto me through the years. And you'll always be someone special in my heart. You're my reminder too. I'm just glad we've moved on.

Labels: along marina promenade, 3am.

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Monday, May 14, 2007

Poolside Talks

Brought our labtops down to the huge maroon umbrellas @ the poolside! Spent time catching up and updating each other. Haha laughed like mad. And we ran into Eugene, primary school friend Eugene. And then I did the most embarrassing thing EVER.
Charmaine: Eugene has a tattoo.
Van: EUGENE?!?!
I practically shouted out his name for the entire pool to hear. And he came over infront of us to see who actually shouted his name. I just pretended nothing happened and continued doing stuff on my lappy and rambling non-stop to Charmaine. BUT ANYWAY, his tattoo is so obviously fake.

Cellphones
OOOOH. Y'KNOW WHAT! Munting just informed me that she got a Razr edition. Weehoo! Now, Ven, Mt and I have Razrs. One red, one maroon, one black. Sleeeeeeeeeeeeek :D Picture on Wensday!

Physics MYE One
Is tomorw. And i havent studied at all. Seriously, because i skipped Paper 2 what. So i've no knowledge on Physics at all now. I am screwed beyond.

9:34 PM

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Passerby: Thank you {:
Amanda Wong: THANKYOU FOR PUTTING YOUR SURNAME THIS TIME. Haha then i won't be confused! Hello mandymandymandy :D
Alexys: HUH. I thought that picture was damn sucky! Haha anyway, he/she grabbed it from Valentina's blog. I dont know for WHAT luh. Damn weird please.
(:: Hello. Eh um, i dont know i just tell her to layer it. Haha.
Passer: -.-
Passerby: Hello {: Thank you.
Gwendolyn: I am messaging you now! Haha love you.
Passerby: WOAH. How come everyone's anyhow pasting urls.
N.ame: Haha. Mr Pandian's the besttttttttt!
ValentinaC: Hee hee. OKAY I SAW FRIENDSTER MESSAGE ALREADY. ARGH, BITCHFACE LEH. We're victims ):
Serene: Ahhhhhhhhh! Sorry sorry! I'm damn lazy to add but i love you! Haha!
Passer: Hello! Okay i tell you something. Saturday's post wasn't from a song. I wrote it myself, like.. It was a random thing in a rush of emotions. Haha =s Don't laugh okay >:( Anyway, hmm we're just friends now. Haha.
ChiLung: Chinaman, I am very much alive loh. I will continue to haunt you one.
FIsh: Hello. Er, i haven't gone to tailor my pants yet. Haha going to soon, cause i need to taper my black ones {:
WanYing: Hello! Haha okay {: Thank you love, you too!
Passerbye: Hello! Er, haha i think you saw the wrong person! Cause at that time, i was still @ town. Haha.
Amanda: Amanda the non NanHua one! Okay hello i love you!
Ruth: RUUUUUUUUUUUUTH. BARNEY NOT SATANIC. I LIKE HIMMMMMMM.
PASSER LAH: Hello. Mmm i go to Monsoon to do my hair. Haha thanks {:
Chevonne: Hello Bimbo One!

9:19 PM

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More pictures with Victoria. Up soon.

9:14 PM

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Saturday, May 12, 2007

SICK. TERRIFIED. FRUSTRATED. UNEASY. INDIGNANT. SLEEPY. HALF-HEARTED. CONFUSED. LOATHE. ANGRY. RELUCTANCE. BLAME. SELF-DOUBT. SPEECHLESSNESS. IRRITANCE. SHAME. PANIC. FEAR. FLUSTER. GLARE. SILENCE. WEAK. WEARY. UNATTAINABLE. REGRET.

REGRET. REGRET. REGRET.
Angst.
Regret's the most powerful word, isn't it?

/adapted.

Come with me, and please take my hand.
Please dont stall, please don't hesitate.
Maybe you know what my heart needs.
So for this, please don't break.
And go on, hold it, clasp it tight.
Look into me and tell me its not wrong to hurt.
Neither is it to cry because,
Even the strongest superheroes break down sometimes.
Wounds don't heal in an instant.
Sometimes it leaves a scar.
Hold me up with every ounce of your strength.
Dont, ever let me fall.

Know that when i look at you,
Its a quiet embrace from within.
Know that when i smile,
Its my soul whispering: "Thank you"
Know that when i touch your hand,
Its my fingers tracing the words,
" I love you. "

12:45 PM

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When we ran into Valentina and people whilst going to meet Marvin and Millie.

12:42 PM

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Alethia: Hello pretty Ale {:
Jane: MAYMAYMAYMAY! Hhahahahaha. I got it wrong!
Crys: Will do! Haha thanks love.
ANONYMOUS: Haha okaaay {: Thanks k.
Amanda: Amanda which one?! HAHA. But thankyou! LOOOOOOVEYOU.
Passer: Haha i'm kindaaaaaa not supposed to say his name cause of some stuff {:
Molly C: YOU ALWAYS SAY I'M CRAZY WHAT! Okay, maybe its the haemorrhaging of my brain because it hit 40 degrees!
ChiLung: Yeah luh. Burning @ 40 degrees in Emath. The best man. Thanks!
Anonymous: Im using Nikon S6 {:
Jaslyn: HAHA HOW I KNOW. And why popiah! Popiah is unglam food!
Ruth: HUH HE IS HE IS WHAT? Hahaha you mad girlie 8) I have a hard time understanding you! Hmm Yao is Yao. Nope, not boyfriend. Haha.

1:04 AM

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Friday, May 11, 2007

Friday, 11 May 2007

Amath 2 & Geography 1 MYE today. I kept falling asleep, i was really tired and didn't know why! Four-Eight decided to skip Chem SPA altogether, bused home with Venelyn. Yao was geting his hair cut into a mohawk @ Far East, so met him and his friend @ Cine around 5pm. Went up to find Marvin and Millie, then went down to the back.

Was walking to Cheers with Yao, and then i saw Valentina, Roula, JiHae, Melissa, JiHeon! YAY. Okay, actually i saw Ji Heon first, THEN... I just blindly shouted out: "VALENTINAAA!" Woah, i'm like damn accurate please. She really was somewhere there. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

ValentinaC: BOYFRIEND AH?!

Van: NO!

ValentinaC: DON'T BLUFF!

Went to buy Strepsils for my throat and drinks, walked back past them and Tina took a picture for us. Marvin, Millie, Yao plus me sat outside Cine and then Syed, Richard and people came along. Oh, then bumped into Daphne, JingHui, Beverly, Liting etc @ Amos. Haha i think they were damn shocked. Cause whilst walking past, i piaked my white clutch against the glass and smiled @ them for a splitsecond before i got pulled away already.
Bused over to Paradiz & played pool aaalllllll the way. Darren and Kang came then Benjamin and Alvin etc. Followed Yao and Kang to watch them punch the thing @ the arcade. Left earlier today cause my mummy was in a bad mood. Hence, i reached home @ like 9.30pm today :D HAHA.

This's an old picture.

Thursday, 10 May 2007

Amath 1 MYE was horrible. Its literally the most screweeeey paper ever. I recall shaking my paper angrily @ LohYee walking out f the class, screaming : " DAMN HARD LUHHHHHH! "

Ah, everyone was like that basically. I recall spending 10 minutes just GAPING at one of the questions. Yeah >:(

Met Yao and went over to his house, then to the mall to eat. Trained over and met Solo, Alvin and Jolin @ Dhoby. Went to mass-buy the things i had to get for Mother's Day @ Dorothy Perkins, Spotlight and Marks and Spencers. HAHA DAMN FUN 8) Big boxes & small boxes. Went over to Paradiz & met Yicong, Marvin, Dew etc. Then home!

Wensday, 9th May 2007

My fever kept going up and down, so i missed Physics 2 and History MYE today. Spent the morning getting drowsy from the extra-heavy dosage of medicine the doctor gave me. (Because the normal ones made my fever shoot higher -.- ) Then * came over in the afternoon to take care of me 8) Watched MTV and he mugged Social Studies, or attempted to. SO THEN WE DECIDED TO COOK! ( Shian ChiLung, see? No food poisoning leh. )

Considering we tried using Philadelphia Cream Cheese to replace butter for cooking scrambled eggs.. Yeah. My stomach acids are really strong and working {: And we cooked mee goreng. Sat infront of the TV and watched some show on all the rich-ass billionaires' home-yachts. I thought, it was quite funny how we were mesmerized by that programme. Haha! So about an hour later, we went to wash the plates and then * found something.

WE LEFT THE FIRE BURNING O.O Like, after cooking noodles we just forgot to turn down the gas supply to the stove and the fire was burning all the while we were outside eating D:

-blank expressionless stares @ each other

Van: Next time our house has to have a fire alarm.

*: Yeah luh!

I could have burnt the house down O.O Charmaine and ChiLung came up to pass me my Amath textbook {: Then * had to be home for dinner that night, so he went home before 7pm. And.. I fell asleep repeatedly after taking dosages of medication.

11:49 PM

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Tuesday, May 08, 2007

GET WELL SOON CHARMAINE, MY LOVELY.
THIS IS WHY I DON'T LIKE BEING YOUR BEST FRIEND.
BECAUSE WE WILL ALWAYS HAVE CHAIN REACTIONS OF WHATEVER HAPPENS TO EITHER OF US.
THANK YOU FOR HAVING A FEVER, AND THEREFORE INDUCING ME TO HAVE A 40 DEGREE ONE.
I LOVE YOU, BABY!

7:13 PM

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Tuesday, 8th April 2007
Did 3 questions of Emath MYE today, and proceeded to collapse on the table. Called Mr Fonseka went down to the General Office. And then my temperature measured 40.1 degrees! >:( My head was throbbing, and i melted the icepack that the receptionist gave me to put on my forehead luh. I couldnt even walk straight for awhile. My daddy fetched me to the clinic and i got medicine. I was burning up and this really nice guy exchanged his queue number with me, so i could go see the doctor earlier 8) He's nice! Im on a 3-day MC =/ But i'll prolly go back to school on the 3rd day for Amath MYE.
Went home and fell asleep until * called and said he was on the way, and asked whether i wanted to eat/drink anything. Then he came up and mugged Social Studies. Went to Chinese Gardens and bummed before he went off.

Monday, 7th April 2007
Had Geography MYE, then English MYE. English MYE was total bullshit. (TRAIN WHAT TRAIN, WHO CARES ABOUT TRAINS LUH) Mugged abit with Minghui and Yifang then cabbed home to take Chemistry. Trained over and mugged with Marvin and Yao. Ended up being shown all the card tricks. HAHAHAHAHAHHA. Now i know how to do a couple! Oh and Marvin's feets like damn small for a guy. Hes the exact same size as me, he can go be my shoe-shopper already. Then went home.

Labels: Ikea must not close down!

6:47 PM

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Monday, May 07, 2007

*=]: Oh okay. Haha {:
....: HAHA.
Whoa: I usually just contrast colors thats all. Haha {:
Ah Beng: Omgosh. Hahahahahha who's this? Anyway, popiah for $3's like expensive.
Ruth: Song by, song by! Secondhand Serenade! And and, BARNEY WHERE GOT SATANIC. It was the false fact about me, i dont think Barney's satanic! HAHA. HAHA.
Manda: Hello mandddddddddy!
Molly C: Hello lovely. HAHA. Where got luh.
Whee: I can see it in your eyes, you're so sure. Please dont tell me that im the only one thats vulnerableeeeee! Hahahahahahahha 8)
GhimHwee: YEAH MAN. Its the single most effective way to understand Chinese. And I LIKE Barney! Barney's cuuuute {:
Melissa: OMGOSH. YOU! MEET AFTER OUR PAPERS REMEMBER.
9988586: YES ITS DAMN HOT. Hahahaha. And its slightly different from v3 features actually. Abit only, but yeah. BUT ITS HOTHOTHOT. Haha! Or maybe its just my opinion. Ah well.
ChiLung: Sorry no pictures! Haha im cheered up now {: ANd you wont forgive me, cause il keep calling you that. HAHAHAHA.
OHHHHH: Hello! Haha, um nah. We're friends for now.
-: Um, we're just friends presently. Haha.
Timmy: Idon't think Barney's satanic! Haha!
Jojo: Hey love! Okay will update links soooooon.
Serene: HELLLLLLO SERENE. Haha! You and Rena are so cute 8) Love you two.
Anony,ouse: Photoshop {:
Vera: BLEND IN BLEND IN! HAHA. LOVE YOU.

12:48 AM

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Saturday, May 05, 2007

8:22 PM

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Friday, May 04, 2007

Higher Chinese MYE
As usual, i didn't understand the entire paper luh. But i heard its difficult... So OKAY ITS DIFFICULT. I just did the usual tikam-tikam and attempts to translate the Chinese to English. Unsuccessful of course.
Bumming
Bused home with Ven, and Mervyn called to tell me he just passed by in a cab when i was at the busstop. Finally caught back some sleep, then Charmaine called to say she saw Yao @ Chinese Gardens, that girl was giggling like.. Ah gosh. Haha then ChiLung and Yao were calling me when Charmaine was calling me and i was freaking out over how to answer the calls? So she helped me pass the message to tell him to come upstairs. And, Shian ChiLung is a chinaman!
Home
Bummed around at home with Yao cause it was too early to go Cityhall. And and, i cleared up the house even faster because Yao helped me wash the dishes! Haha 8) Went downstairs to pick up my MotoRed from my daddy. Then went up and bummed around somemore, then my daddy came back home. He tried to forcefeed Yao with the chocolates he got from Germany. Then we went off to town and my daddy went back to work.
Trainride
Oooooh. There was this adorable ang-moh toddler on the train! And he started giggling when Yao showed him his tonguestud. OMGOSH THE KID'S SO CUTE. He wouldnt let go of the MRT pole, then he blew 2 kisses, complete with "Mwah mwah!" sound effects, at both of us when he was exiting the train. I promptly died on the spot. So adorable okay!
Cityhall
Met Weiwen to get stuff from Prints, and the Hersheys. Then met Yao,Marvin,Donna,Chevonne,Fendi,Dew,YiCong and the rest. Trained over to Dhoby and left with Yao. The rest went to Cine. And.. The rest of the night was ups and downs. Really =/
Moody. Happier. Delirious. Disappointment. Lost. Quiet comfort. Happy. Wordless smiles. Love.
Happy Sixteeenth Yao!
Sat at the staircases behind Chinese Gardens and i gave him a song to listen to. "Vulnerable" by Secondhand Serenade. And the black box which contained a letter written on brown vintage paper and the lyrics or the song on a piece of red paper. Tied them together with black lace, and there was a bar of Hersheys for him too [:
After listening and reading everything, he was just looking & smiling @ me cause he said he didn't know what to say anymore. Haha.
Home
Rents weren't very happy at the time i reached home. Dew called, talked to him. Then finally called Yao back. And then he told me something, and I felt so bad that I started crying silently on the phone. And he kept saying it was okay, but obviously its not because I. Nevermind. But things are okay now {:

Labels: Just because you were hurt,
Doesn't mean you shouldn't bleed.
I can be anyone, anything.

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11:30 PM

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Thursday, May 03, 2007

Emath & Social Studies MYE
No comment considering i revised only yesterday. Poor Yifang was so sad about Emath ): And we were all attempting to comfort her.
YiFang: BUT I WANT TO DO THE QUESTIONNNNN!
Vans: Okay.. When the paper comes back we'll ALL sit down and do the question TOGETHER okay?
*Keming bursts into laughter.
The poor girl had a whole page missing from her test paper! Screw the people who staple our testpapers together luh!
After School
Mugged with ChiLung and LohYee after school. Found Gwen and Bettie in the canteen. Then cabbed home and went down to meet Yao.
Taaaaaaaaaaalk
I was running, running, running up the overhead bridge to fetch him from Chinese Gardens, and i only managed half-a-flight of stairs before i looked up and saw that familiar tongue stud and grin, with arms wide open! I was happy {:Waited for his parents to pick him up for their wedding anniversary dinner, and ran into Charmaine and her boy.
Charmaine: I HAVE CHEEEEEEEEETOSSSSSSS!
>:( Out to make my blood boil! I want Cheetos luh! Sat and talked, counted years and attempted to palm-read.

1. I will die early.
2. Yao's gonna have a pretty wife.
3. Im gonna be the wife cause the side of his palm has a separate line in a "V" shape, which apparently stands for me.

We're the world's worst palm-readers man.

Labels: And your slow, shaking fingertips.
Show that you're scared like me.
So, lets pretend we're alone.

7:02 PM

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Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Amanda: Mango [: And yes! Love that song too! Hahaha,
Weiwen: Tsk. Weiwen!
Charmaine: INNER WORKINGS? Hahahahaha. You two crack me up.
9988586: Hot right! Hot right! Haha red's hot. Im getting it soo, although the features ren't that good. Hahahaha {:
ChiLung: THERE THERE. Update already! Hey, SUPPER REMEMBER. SUPPER @ NEWTON ON YOU. HAHA.
Jaslyn: Hello Jassssssssssssssssssss! I see somebody's in a good mood huh? [:
Abcde: Hello! Thank you. And my boyfriend is not Weiwen. Weiwen's my BEST friend.
GhimHwee: *hyperventilates*
Wens: I get them from Photobucket's images {:
Gwendolyn: YEAH. SBS IS THE MOST POWERFUL FORM OF TRANSPORT, EVEEERRR! Love you too 8)
Ruth: But but, I havent gotten into trouble for skipping yet! Hahahahah. Serious? SPEECH DAY LEH. How can it not be boring!
Stargirl: OH I SEE IT ALREADY. Haha thats cooool {:
Gal: Er..I'm not sure! Haha. But Chinatown area has tons of shops selling vintage belts and buttons [:
Passerby: Ohhhh. Actually right, that's my brother's tee-shirt. HAHAHAHAHA. But its from Pull and Bear! {:
Pass: Welcome! {:
Timmy: Uh... YEAHHHHH -.-
Z: Nope, he's not my boyfriend. Haha.

3:22 PM

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Sunday, 29th April 2007

Met Nicholas @ JE and headed t Expo. Met Minette & KaiBin, went to book seats. I was happy! I laughed alot that day, but i kept getting hit over the head with newspapers >:(

And KaiBin's the only one who supports me getting my piercing. Hahaha. Fetched Chevonne w/ KaiBin. Then service started. Was supposed to get BK for lunch with Nicholas's BK discount coupons... Then he realised it expired 1day before -.- But we got new coupons and had BK anyway. And there were so many dogs @ Expo! Some pet fair going on i think.

There was a car fair thingy too. I wanted a red balloon. So Chevo and I went to get balloons for ourselves & hyperventilated over dogs, all the way to Hall 3! I LOVE MY BIMBO ONE! Played a game where we're supposed to say 3 things about ourselves, 2 true & 1 false facts. And others are supposed to guess the false one out. This was what i said:

1. I ever stepped continuously in clayey-sand at a beach, until i sunk so deep into the beach that i COULDNT get out. And it took 30minutes for my dad to pull me out.

2. I think Barney's satanic.

3. When i was a kid, i had a HUGE FEAR of mascots. Like, people dressed as Santa Claus or TweetyBird. I CRIED when Santa offered me candy. And today, I still don't like mascots.

And everyone was like.. "Number One is so typical of you luh, confirm true." WHEEEEEYYYYY >:( Hahahaha. Everyone chose 3. But Number 2, is the fake one! HAHAHA. Only Nicholas got it right. Nicholas's one was the best.

1. I dropped my handphone into the toiletbowl the day i got it.

PLEASE. ITS SO OBVIOUSLY A TRUE FACT. HAHA. So Nicholas okay! Ran off to find Alvin and Yao, then had BS. Then bummed around with Chevo and trained back with her and Yao.

Awhile back

Why is that sad look in your eyes, Why are you crying?

Tell me now, tell me now. Tell me why your feeling this way

I hate to see you so down.

Is it your heart oh.. Thats breakin' all in pieces?

Making you cry, makin' you feel blue.

Is there anything that i can do?

Why dont you tell me where it hurts now baby?

And i'll do my best to make it better.

Yes i'll do my best to make those tears all go away

Why dont tell me where it hurts now, tell me?

And i love you with a love so tender..oh.

And if you let me stay i love all the hurt away.

I kept looking down because i was trying to keep my tears in. I was so touched [: I miss you.

2:45 PM

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Sunday, 29th April 2007

2:02 PM

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Saturday, April 28, 2007

Waiting for your call, I'm sick.
Call, I'm angry.
Call, I'm desperate for your voice.
I'm listening to the song we used to sing.
In the car, do you remember?
Butterfly, Early Summer.
It's playing on repeat,
Just like when we would meet.

I was born to tell you I love you.
And I am torn to do what I have to,
To make you mine,
Stay with me tonight.

Stripped and pollished,
I am new, I am fresh.
I am feeling so ambitious,
You and me, flesh to flesh.
Because every breath that you will take.
While you are sitting next to me,
Will bring life into my deepest hopes,
What's your fantasy?

I was born to tell you I love you.
And I am torn to do what I have to,
To make you mine,
Stay with me tonight.

And I'm tired of being all alone,
And this solitary moment makes me want to come back home.
x4 ( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

2:18 AM

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Anon: Hello! Nah, my Charmaine're prettier & hotter [: But anyway, she's not his girlfriend-girlfriend luh! Hahahahahahha. They're just mad lunatics calling each other by that term.
Weiwen: Aiyuh. you two have constantly been on killing sprees for each other what. Do you know, its actually quite funny to be in the middle, hearing " ARGGGGH IM GONNA KILL THAT WOMAN/MAN!!!!! " from both of you? =O Haha!
Molly C: HAHA. UNFAITHFUL CAVEMAN. HAHAHA. Eh Weiwen. Caveman leh, you're like. Our himbo-caveman now.
Passerby: Hello! Hmm. Big oversized tees? Which one? =/
Chevonne: B1! Yes, see you @ the weekend lovely [:
Felicia: Hey! Hmm, are you a Felicia that i know? Haha. Hmm, nope Weiwen's NOT MY LOVER. He's my best friend. Haha!
Crys: Hey love! Haha.
Stargirl: Are you the Stargirl in Valentina's blog? Hahaha. ALAMAK. I tried the printscreen thing, but i can't even find the button D:
Ruth: Hahahahaha! You silly girl! OOOH. THE LITTLE MS CHATTERBOX, THE QUEENS COUTURE ONE? Wait, there is one with the slogan right? Ahah!
Joel: If i bring a gun to school, and accidently set off killing 32 students. Its your fault okay!
Pass: Hello! I got the top from Topshop [:
Anoymous: Haha [:
Timmy: WHAT. WHAT CHIN CHOW? Ahah, aiyuh. Just random funny people..

12:47 AM

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Friday, 27 April 2007

Skipped School
Because i made an attempt to mug late. Haha. A couple of people skipped school today too, i think. Thats according to Shian ChiLung luh. Ven skipped today too. Ahah! Bummed around the entire day before going to look for a phone.

Phonessssss
IM PISSED OFF. I cannot find any phone, like one that i really love. And my mum thought there weren't really any nice models out too.
Mama: " Okay. Since you still have another year before your phone contract expires. Decide on a phone, or we'll go repair your Razr."
Mama: " Two choices: the MotoRed v3, or the Dolce and Gabbana one. Or you want to repair? "
): How come there's no nice phones around. The LG one didnt appeal to me anymore. Hahah. So i dont know, i'l just bum around with a phone until my contract totally expires... THEN I WON'T HAVE TO BE UNDER STARHUB ANYMORE! Ahah. I don't like Starhub. Hmmmmmm. I think MotoRed's hot. Haha cause its RED. And I like red! Alot :D But the features are shit luh. Thats one thing.

Aprime, Home
Went to Crown for Physics. Today's class was funnnnneee :D Hahahaha. I mean, just tell me. DO YOU HAVE A PHYSICS TEACHER, THAT SUCKS HELIUM OUT OF BALLOONS JUST TO MAKE THAT SQUEAKY VOICE? Haha! Mr Sirhan's so cool.
Was walking out of Crown to the bus stop, and Yao found me. Then he took me home and walked over to Cheers to get food. Sat and bummed around until he went off to meet his dad to get latenight supper or something.

Speech Day Tomorrow
Ven texted to make sure i wasn't going for Speech Day tomorw. HAHAHA. Nice one babe. You helped me make up my mind. So anyway, i'm skipping tomorw and i shall attempt to mug tonight. Then if Yao comes over tomorw morning, i'l be falling asleep. Then i'l go for cell group. Yeah.

12:22 AM

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Friday, April 27, 2007

Thursday, 26th April 2007

Paper Ones
I think right, i didn't screw my Paper Ones that badly today 8) And i think i was really lucky because i only studied ONE format for Chinese, and none for English.. And that particular format was tested :D And English was on a speech. Which required NO FORMAT. Haha! Thank God, thank God [:

School Song
Some weird urgent briefing for Speech Day. For once, the S4 level sang the school song audibly. Although we had to do it a couple of times before B Lim approved of it. But still. HHA BREAKTHROUGH.

Running to Clem Central
I swear, i won't ever cross the bend where cars U-turn anymore. This huge black Land Rover braked right infront of me cause i had no time to avoid it ): I was, quite traumatised. Because it made me think of the stupid accident last year. When some van knocked me down at the bend in front of my estate.

Macs and Mugging
Met Yao and went to tah-pao Macs. Trained back to Parc Oasis and ate under the umbrellas @ the poolside. Saw my dear Charmaine because she shrieked my name from across the pool, waving like a luna. Yes sweetheart, i still love you despite that very spastic action. (YOU SHOULD HAVE SEEN YOURSELF. AHAH YOU'L LAUGH!)
Ran upstairs to get medicine for Yao cause he was sick. Then mugged in the clubhouse's studyroom. Walked around the estate then out, to get food. Ooh, oat-milk's damn nice! 8) I love it. Ran into Abhishek downstairs! (He's gonna tutor me Chemistry soon.) Thennnn, went back to mug. Okay so its more of me ATTEMPTING to mug luh, cause Yao kept drawing. And then i received a text, and it made me think of really bad stuff in the past. Sigh. Yeah and i was quite distraught.
After many attempts to hide behind my Chem textbook, Yao took me to the poolside to talk. Much better [: Was quite late, then he went home.

11:54 PM

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Wednesday, April 25, 2007

To my best: HAPPY SEVENTEENTH!

Look! You grew a whole year older, but none the wiser! Haha! I didn't forget your birthday, I was planning on being the last to wish you on your birthday.. Just like YOU did on MINE. And i remember, how i hollered at you for forgetting my birthday that night, because i THOUGHT you did.
Hahahaha. Well, its amazing how you've tolerated being my best for over 2 years now. You've never blown up at me when i blew up at you. Sometimes, when you call.. I snap at you really badly. But you've never really retorted back at me. (either that or you're too much of the himbo to realise i was angry, but i choose to believe the other) And then, when i'm in the angsty mood and start bitching endlessly about stuff. You'd be THE ONE watching me with that lilting half-smile, in amusement. You know i've never told you this. But sometimes its the " Wow. My baby's grown up now. " kinda half-smile.
Wowza. And in a typical reply to my rantings? You'd always go something like.. " Hey look. Its really not fair to blame *blah blah*. You see, its really not his/her fault that he/she's such a *endless stream of discrimination* " It never fails to make me burst out into laughter! And then simmer down with a smile and stop ranting [: Its like.. You're my therapeutic summat summat. Haha!
Thank you for insisting we hug everytime we go our separate ways. Its really, REALLY one of the little things that reassure me and make my day. Even the snide remarks you always throw in my face endlessly. AND, I REALLY MEAN. ENDLESSLY. But the thing is, you'd always follow it up with a huge grin and a pat on my head saying you were kidding.
Then came the time back then when i was more of a wildchild. Why, WHY didn't you let me go? Even to this day, i still can't decipher how you still trusted in me and hoped I'd turn back around. I've disappointed you time again, but you'd never look back and pin-point it whatsoever.
Then came the tears and the hurt back last year. Remember how i met you @ Starbucks and broke down simply telling you about them? And do you remember what you did? You went to get serviettes. Haha! But enough on the sad times, you've helped me through them, holding my hand tight. And i'm simply lost for words as to how much that meant to me.

On happier notes!

1. Remember the time i was so exhausted for dancing for 4 hours straight? You piggybacked me all the way from the studio to Boon Keng!
2. Remember how i threatened you that i wouldn't go into the pool if you didn't let me advertise you? YOU PULLED ME, INTO THE POOL, FULLY CLOTHED.
3. I realised awhile ago, that you will NEVER approve of any guy i go out with. You've spent the past years lamenting and complaining to Charmaine about the guys i've gone out with luh -.-
4. "Heehee dino.. Me caveman.. Me make fire!" *rubs hands together excitedly*
5. The constant reminders and complaints of random gays who stalk you. It makes me appreciate what i have. Serioussssssly.
6. Remember the time i FORCED you to change into the Spongebob boxers when you were at my house? Then i spent the next 10 minutes or so laughing, hyperventilating at the expression of utter disgust you gave me.
7. Remember our pact? 30 years and grumpily un-married. WE MOVE IN TOGETHER [:
8. " You must be sin^2 x. And i'm cos^2 x. Because TOGETHER, WE ARE ONE! " Quoted from convo to Charmaine.
9. Drawing, illustrating on a piece of paper how lucky * was because i was his girl. (this was waaay back)
10. AND LASTLY, THE ULTIMATE: Remember the time you gave a farewell speech as Captain to the RI Cross Country team? You came to us bawling... Because the team pinned you down and cut/shaved your head of hair into a horrible horrible uneven fashion. You wore a cap for the rest of the days. And I, just LAUGHED endlessly on the end. Oh boy, that was THEEE best 8)

So here's to many more years of retarded acts and laughter, tolerating me tolerating YOU, and hopefully the day will come when you will say: " Okay. This is the guy. Stick with him. " Ng Weiwen, my best. Please do remember our pact, because i'm pretty sure no guy will want to marry me. And until then, i will keep haunting your dreams and laughing at your stupidity, loving you for simply being you [:

:: wEiWeN :: has runting for his shijie [HSBC] says:
and we will sort this out later k
:: wEiWeN :: has runting for his shijie [HSBC] says:
pinky promise? :]
My plug-in baby. says:
pinky promise [:
:: wEiWeN :: has runting for his shijie [HSBC] says:
very nice!
My plug-in baby. says:
haha i love you!

And I always will [:

10:00 PM

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To that anonymous who keeps tagging with a different name each time: Please luh, i can SEE your ip address okay? And to whichever other anonymous-ES who may have something against me?
Screw you all. You're really quite wasting your time just b*tching about me in all possible ways. So I say, go ahead. Comment on me just so to make that little bundle of lilting joy in your little lives, if it gratifies you. I'm just going to delete/not reply to tags i don't want to reply.
It makes me sound like some ultra-lord queens of b*tches here, I DO REALISE THAT. But whatever. I'm quite sickened by comments. If you've got nothing good to say, please go away?
I'm me, and if sometimes you think i'm a b*tch. Then okay, suit yourself. Please. Just get lives of yoru own.
Leave me in wonder.

9:49 PM

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Molly C: "Little friends". HAHAHA. They amuse me too. Weiwen says they lead sad lives -.- I DONT LIKE MYES, I WANT TO SLEEP LIKE A NORMAL PERSON.
ValentinaC: Love you many Tina.
Weiwen: THEN THEN, K.O KNOCKOUT I WIN. HHAHA. Okay, not funny yeah -.-
Joel: JOEL YOU'RE THE ULLLLLTIMATE B*TCH OK. Today you gave me 2 heart attacks.
PeiShan: Haha hello love!
Ruth: Ah, RUTHHHY. Lets just forget about the anons. Let the world bitch about me, i don't really care. But anyway, YES. LIKE, HEELS AND PRETTY DRESSES.. Grabbing buffet food like there's no tomorw >:( It will just SUCK. Big time.
Amanda: YESSSSSS. Haha i thought it was hot 8) If ive no other option, il prolly end up with the LG Gold i guess? D: :D =/
9988586: Aw, thank you! At least there's nice people like you around. Bahah but no ): he's quite a staunch buddhist. I'll be praying for a breakthrough until it comes though! [:
annoymous!: Englishhhhhhhh [: I cant really speak Chinese for nuts ):
anoymous: Okay thank you.

9:40 PM

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2:41 PM

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Tuesday, April 24, 2007

!!: OH. MY. GOSH. Now i realise i put the damn wrong word. #?*&!^$%#?! Seriously, something's wrong with me. Thanks for telling me anyway. Yeah my file's with them now, but if i do go, i'll only start the whole training after my 'O's.
abcdefghijessica: I dont know how! Haha my friend took them for me and sent it over. Sorry.
Amanda: Hello pretty yourself! [:
ValentinaC: Then lets go studying! Hahaha.
9988586: You know, i was rendered speechless when i saw your tag! 8) Thank you. I'm learning to let go now [: I just hope that i'll be able to let it go FOR GOOD one day.
Victoria: Hello coolie! Okaaaaaaaay [:
Timmy: CREDITS GO TO TIMMY FOR HELPING ME TAKE SCREENSHOTS. Can? Haha.
Damian: Hello Damian! Stalkersssss? Ahah oooh! Speak cheena! Speak cheena!
passerby: Mm thankyou [:
ChiLung: Joel's gay loh. He's like, some gay b*tch.
Joel: JOEL IMA KILL YOU NEXT TIME. Scare the sh*t out of me @ canteen luh.
Ruth: RUTH RUTH. SO HAWKER CENTRE RIGHHHHT!
Cassandra: And.. I still have like 8 months to go -.-
Anon: D: JIA LAT. Then i don't know what phone to get already.
Tasha: Taking Reggae now [:
Jaslyn: WHY EVERYBODY SAY LG NOT GOOD. ARGHHHH. Then what phone! >:(
anon: Oh nooooooo ): But the LG Chocolate Gold's pretty..

4:58 PM

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Monday, April 23, 2007

Photo-Grabber

Haha. I thought i should share this. I came upon the "Who Grabbed My Photos" page in Friendster.
And I found HER.Just type in the searchbox - KAILIN
To tell you the truth, I was quite weirded out. Hahah.
Why're there such funny people in the world?
*stares blankly at computer screen

Sunday, 22nd April 2007
Hitched a ride in Sister PY's car to Expo and had BS at Foyer 3. Then Timmy came and had his BS and i went into the hall. Service was awesome 8) Worship was really long that morning. Lunched @ Burger King. Then Yao came to find me. He bought me Hersheys! Haha. Trained over to town to meet Victoria @ Wisma. Bummed around and she bought chick lit novels from Kinokuniya.

The taxi queue was suuuuper long, so we were calling for cabs while waiting in the queue. And there were about 914376457894576126754 people ahead of us in the queue >:( Then a cab popped up beside us with the "Changing Shift. Jurong" sign on his windscreen. Victoria went to ask him for Toh Tuck and Parc Oasis.
AND HE SAID OKAY.
Woooooooooh. I was laughing when Vic jumped into the cab cause the people in the taxi queue were all looking @ us.

Van: " Haha. Bitches. "
*slams the taxi door.
Then Vic goes on proclaiming on how the people in the queue were losers. Hahahahahaha. Sigh, we're such meanies right. Anyway, pictures are still with the coolie. I love you Vic. Smooch.

6:48 PM

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Saturday, April 21, 2007

Cassssssssss

Tai tai is turning sixteen soon, if i remember correctly! Grabbed this picture that i never knew existed from her. Haha. Miss you Cassie!

Saturday, 21 April 2007

Passed Jane the stuff to sell off then went for cell. Cabbed to Crown for Amath. Ended class at about 6 and found YiCong and Yao downstairs already. Bused to Dhoby then over to Bugis. Met Solo, Ben, Marvin and the rest. Went off later at night and Yao trained with me back home before he went back to join the rest for sheesha.

Crosscountry Nationals

My Charmaine screwed her knee even more ): And WOOOOOH! Best friend got 4th. Ng Weiwen, I'm so proud. *beams widely. 4th is good to me, not to you because you alwaysssssss want to WIN. But anyway, you've still got a couple more competitions to own yeah? And and, i'm sorry i didn't go down to support you guys! ): I love you k. Haha.

90th Anniversary Teeshirt

Its so ugly. Vans gonna use it as pajamassssss.

Rant!

I NEED RELEASE. RELEASE RELEASE RELEASE. Am feeling mighty angsty now, so there's no reason to call me a bitch. I will rant on postives and negatives!

To you: MY DEAR, YOU'RE OLD. Please let that knee heal! Stop bouncing around. I love you.

To you: I don't quite decipher you, and it make me sick to the stomach as i try to analyse it.

To you: Im sorry for blowing up at you now and then, but please know. I really really love you, and whatever i've been doing for the past year's all a bid to protect you and keep you safe from the pain and hurt that i went through alone. Thank you for trying to take care of me now that you're growing up. You treat me like a little sister instead sometimes. But know that i'll ALWAYS be taking care of you. I love you.

To you: Sadly, i'm not sure anymore. Waver, waver away. But, i don't want it to.

To yous: The rest of the year's gonna be hell, and we're gonna spin the most wonderful memories of what time we have left with each other. Don't worry, Xingxian and I'll have it all on the camera, video camera. Its for our graduation video anyway 8) We're the sex.

To you: I used to loathe every bit of you. And we've had nothing resembling a relationship on any ground for the past year. You haven't the slightest inkling of an idea how much you hurt me. But finally, i've found the capacity to let go. And yes, i'm still adjusting to this new feeling. But i believe things are going to be okay. I want to be a daddy's girl once more.

To you: Hey [:

To you: STOP CHASING ME FOR MY CHINESE HOMEWORK.

To you: Hello dancey hottie, we'll be Reggae Level III graduates in no time. Here's to more wining that will inevitably lead to us snapping our neck from the headflings, and you to do your breakdance move! Smooch.

To You: Thank you for holding me in your arms when i was falling apart once more. I promise you, this will be the last. I won't break. I've got you.

Stuck there

And my plug in baby

Crucifies my enemies

When I'm tired of giving

Wooah

And my plug in baby

In unbroken virgin realities

I'm tired of living

Ooh

Labels: I just had a whole new perception of Barney. And its NOT a good one. Thanks Yao >:(

11:26 PM

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Minette: Hey! Okay i'l link you 8)
Joel: Tsk what tsk. Xiao jie i'm like, older than you. Show me the respect man! Ahahahah.
9988586: I used to use the pink Razr until it died again. Getting the LG Gold soon maybe.
N.ame: F=Ma whaaaaat? Huh ): They got so mean meh.. I thought its going according to votes by the entire S4 level?
ChiLung: Weiwen is.. *throws hands up in exasperation. Yeah funnnneeee gayshit. Thats why hes my best 8) ANYWAY AH, its so fun to sit next to me again right :D I know!
Weiwen: Hey best. How come you never fail to refer to me as a vehicle. LIKE, EVER. Van bus mrt -.- I'm gonna think of something to counter you loh. Anyway congrats! I still love you [:
Timmy: Ahah.
Anoymous: HAHAHAHAHAHHA!
Victoria: I hate it that your blog doesnt have a tagb! Haha. Hello coolie!
Ruth: IM JUST BETTING EVERYONE WILL CHOOSE THE CHEAPO PACKAGE LUH. Then prom will just be bullshit. Can you imagine, JUST IMAGINE, if we end up not at Hyatt, but some other stupid hotel eating from a BUFFET instead of a course meal? >:( RIGHT RIGHT?
Jane: Aha! My talenttttttt 8)
Molly C: )))))))))))): MAKE ME FEEL GUILTY LUH.
Jingwen: Ahah i think i know already.
PeiShan: Okay, i THINK i remember you. Vaguely. Haha!
Rosselini: Lyrical jazz? Haha! Hello cutie [:

11:08 PM

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Wednesday, April 18, 2007

THIS PHOTOGRAPH DESCRIBES EXACTLY HOW I FEEL NOW.
Quite.. Blah.

New Seating Arrangement
I'm now @ the very first row, and at the CENTER of the classroom. Like, premium seats to the whiteboard. I want my old seat back ): At least, its at the front row-CORNER of the classroom. And i can still text people under the desk, and fall asleep towards the window-side. NOW I JUSTTTTT CANNOT DO EITHER. Mr Shian is sitting within 1m radius of me AGAIN. So is Keith. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH. Let the madness begin AGAIN.

Sodium Experiment @ Parade Square
Ms Lim threw in the sodium and FourEight stood like 10steps away from the container. It fizzed purple, like Barney. And then it exploded. I was so scared. Haha! It totally looked like some atomic bomb waiting to go off okay.

Prom Night
Dear God, please please let the level choose the expensive package unanimously so we won't have a sucky Grad Night. Amen.

Order Macs/Not To Order Macs?
Spent the time @ the canteen tables debating with people to order in Macs to school. Cause i was hungry. But LY insists im risking the Macs-delivery-boy's life by sending him on a life-threatening journey to deliver my lunch under such weather. And the weather was REEEEALLY freaky, lightning and all. After mumbling and grumbling about the catered buffet for CO, a few tables away from us, I promptly gave up on getting food altogether. Borrowed 2bucks from CL for about 30minutes and returned it to him... Because CH gave me like, half her lunch because she couldn't finish it. HAHA. Im so lucky, cause i didnt bring cash to school today know :D Thanks CH!

Attempt To Mug 1
Spent eons rambling and hyperventilating about stuff to Gwen, Bettie and Jane. Before we finally got down to work. Mugging session was funny :D My right butt hurts cause i was sitting slanted/leaning on Gwen on the bench. Because that Jane Tor takes up all the table space with her Amath, leaving me to do my SS notes sideways. HAHAHAHAH. Released stressss! And ive a God-give talent of ah-hem. I won't mention it cause i think its so un-glam. Jane collapsed from laughter when i did it. SSSSH. ITSASECRETOK. I laughed until i couldnt breathe any longer! =O Then i was daze-y and moodswingy ): Then went homeeee [:

8:19 PM

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Monday, April 16, 2007

Benny Hinn's Sunday Service @ Indoor Stadium:
Met Timmy to go SIS with my brother. Cabbed over from Kallang with one of the guys from choir. Ate junkfood whilst waiting for KaiBin to arrive. Then went off to take the Entrypasses for choir with Cai. Then Mervyn finally came, and i didn't have to subsidise his cab fare for him :D Rehearsed for abit then went to find the cell with Mervyn. Oh and i was laughing at him, cause he was wearing FMSS trousers cause he had no black/navyblue pants! Haha. Choir attire was navyblue+black for girls. White+black for guys.

Service was abit boring at the start. Cause it was going through Luke and such. And the choir saaaaang :D I was praying my face wouldn't surface on the big screen. Pst Benny loves the choir! He wants to bring us to Israel! =O Oh and he's really anointed! Alot of people got healed of cancer that night. And wheelchair-bound people were getting up and walking. And the deaf started hearing and such 8) Pst Benny stretched out his hands and touched the healed and they just fell backwards! Even the pastors waiting to catch the falling people got affected and fell even though Pst Benny didn't even touch them! My brother went down for the altarcall, and since he was in the crowd, he managed to see and experience everything on whole. He told me he could really feel the holyspirit moving, covering the entire stadium in a blanket!

And then Pst Benny turned towards the choir, and told all of us to hold hands. My seat was at the 2ndlast row, right at the top, and i was eyesclosed praying in the spirit. Then i think Pst Benny went like: "Touch.."

Sounds of bodies hitting the seats and screams echoing in the air. Then something came over me like a wave and i fell, together with my entire row. And and, it was scary at first cause i lay there breathing really fast and irregularly, and people were manifesting? They were laughing and laughing. Then i started to cry. Like, not tears-flow-down cry. But, wailing and crying out in sorrow kinda cry. So the choir was just shaking, and super noisy, all fallen in their seats. And i recovered quite fast, with some others too. So i sat up, and my entire body was numb. My hands and legs were tingling and i was in a daze. Then some started standing up and praying again, so i did too. And Pst Benny turned back to us and called for DOUBLE the anointing of the holyspirit. Then those standing started falling again, and then i fell too. The second anointing, the entire choir was laughing and laughing! It echoed through the stadium luh. I was laughing too D:

The feeling of having the holyspirit gush through you, causing you to fall, was unexplainable. Ven explained to me that crying was actually the holyspirit healing of inner & past hurt. Woah. The laughter was freaky in a way though, was my first time seeing people manifest and manifesting myself what. Haha! Pst Benny's so anointed! He called all the Malaysians down to the front and blessed them, and the all fell like a ripple in the water! They said the choir fell row after row, really quickly. Like dominoes! Seeing so manymanymany people giving their lives to God really touched me. God moves in a wonderful way 8) Seeing miracles, healing of the blind and the sick was amazing too. He leaves me in AWE! I love my God!

Found Mervyn after choir de-brief. Packeted prata and ate at some random bus terminal canteen. HAHA. And finally, finally i got home.

Labels: I will run into Your open arms. To your love, that washes away my fears.

6:05 PM

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Gwendolyn: Psst! I've to tell you stuff! Haha!
PeiShan: Mm. Who's this? Haha i use photoshop.
Molly C: I will, SO break my bones dancing lyrical. You've yet to tell me about that M* girl and what she did!
ValentinaC: D: I think i will die, attempting to dance that way.
Joel: DON'T BLUFFFFFFFF.
:]]: Mm. Nope. Unless you count the random dance classes i took back in Sec2. Haha.
Joyce: I'm gonna miss you too! ))))))))):
=D: Hello! Nope, which is why i have to work on my flexibility.. Majorly. Haha!
Ruth: HAHA :D
Hihihi: Hurt by Christina A.

5:58 PM

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Life's seriously been crazy towards me lately. But here's a massive update, only on the lighter notes!
Dance:
Technique class was insane. Duttywine's are insane. My neck's been sore from the headbanging and headflicks. Then comes the sharp pain that goes like fire down my spine when i lie on any flat surface after dance. Like, my bed? I've to learn to stretch my lower back our properly to avoid the overstraining D: Was VERY disorientated from dance. Everyone was, whenever i stand back up from bending down, i literally lose my balance and have to stop myself from falling over backwards. Thats what happened whilst i was getting water. Ling just laughs -.-
I-poddy
My dearest ipoddy functions on a flat-out battery. (Refer to picture) It never ceases to amaze me. Really.

Friday's PE Class:
I was still, disorientated from dance. (Brain turned to mushy bits after headflicks) Was doing the Standingbroadjump thing and i jumped... And my body just STOPPED itself from jumping whilst i was mid-air. It was so weird! I promptly SCREEE-AMED and crashed right-shoulder-first into the black mat D: I've a huge blueblack on my shoulder now okay. And its painful! NOT FUNNY. NOT FUNNY. STOP LAUGHING. STOP LAUGHING >:( I couldn't move my shoulder properly for the whole day.
Last 69th Coy Parade:
There was a skit we had to do, and Charmaine and I were acting as the demon-possessed. I think we were good! Because even Clara (Jesus) who knew what we were gonna act out, was frightened by our acting. HAHAHAHAHHA. I shall assume that me and Charmaine act really good as Lucifer-possessed then. Squadtime was sad. Called Squad1 to gather and i gave a kinda-farewell speech thing ): Thankyous to people, and my AsstSqLeader the Koifish-JiaQi. (Inside joke) And telling the squad not to make life difficult for Koifish, to rise up, to take care of each other and blah. I made it sound like, all the S4s were gonna die the next day. HAHA. Took pictures 8) Well, there's still one more camp to go. And it'll be the best. I just know it.

MYEs:
I haven't started a single bit of revision. And i hate myself for it. I can't believe the Prelims are a couple of months away. I'm freaking out, for MYEs major. PO. PO. PO. My PO depends on my MYEs. And its making me freak out even more, just that fact alone! MYEs are in 2 weeks. Someone just kill me please.

M.A.C Eyeliner:
I thank my toes that this exists!

Physics
I don't like electricity. Let me emphasize on it. I HATE IT. And FourEight was in an uproar on sexual discrimination when Mr Pandian hinted that girls were lousy at Physics.
FourEight girls: THEN WHAT ABOUT MRS CHANG?!
Mr Pandian: Aiyah. She's an exception.
-.- But its okay. I just plain suck at Physics. It'l ever be a miracle if i scrape a B4 for the Prelims/Os.

Oh, OH. I found out that my dog likes carrots... Like, ALOT. Thats all :D

3:59 PM

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Thursday, April 12, 2007

Breathe.

Don't cry.

Keep it in.

Chin up, smile.

6:21 PM

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Everyone's gonna drop dead at my announcement.
I'm taking Lyrical @ either LADC or Oschool. Haha! If i'm taking it up @ LADC, i'll be taking LA Hiphop @ Oschool at the same time. So, here's to the soul grooves of LA Hiphop and the fluidity and emotions of Lyrical!

Here's Lyrical for you.

6:12 PM

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Anon: Haha i don't really use lip stuff. Cause it all goes away when i eat, and its irritating to re-apply :s I'm using Clinique's mascara.
ValentinaC: Hey love, thanks.
Jaslyn: ARGH BALLOON KILLER. HAHA.
Passerby: Haha why's everyone asking me questions? Um i really don't know. Sorry! Haha.
Gwen: THANK YOU FOR YOUR ROSE TODAY 8) I LOVE YOU GWEN.
Someone: Thanks [: Uh, i usually get whatever's nice luh. Haha but i'm always heading into Miss Selfridge, Zara and such.
Theo: Haha ER, thank you. Who's this?
Wheeee: I listen to THAT type of genre kinda bands, anything goes. I think Sugarcult's good. Haha then for dance i'm always on the usual ghetto hiphop tunes and remixes!
eeeee: [:
Ruth: Haha! You're so cute.
Timmy: PPPPPPPPPPPeace. See you @ Benny Hinns! The queue's gonna be killer.
Chevonne: Chevonne, where art thou? BAHA. And, i'll see you on Sunday too bimbooooh! Phone conferencing was funny!
Jane: Where got fat!
=): Haha see maybe i'l have a full length picture with it someday luh. I don't know 8)
Crys: Hello! Yes meet up soon okay? 8) Come for serviec with Chev and me on one of the Sundays want? Haha!
xD: Because i don't have curly hair! HAHAHAHAH. Okay >:( Not funny.

5:38 PM

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Tuesday, April 10, 2007

I had the liberty of sleeping through lessons because of my drowsy medicine today. And it feels good! Nanah-nanah-nanah-nah! I knew that it would! Nanah-nanah-nanah-nah! Feels good! Feels good! Feels good! Dum-dum-dum-dah!

Hahahahahahhahahahahahahhaha. Sorry, random outburst. Oh and i realised, I have to talk constantly, or my voice goes into SHUTDOWN-MODE. Please, Venelyn was just laughing at me on the way down to the canteen -.- Cause i sound like a toad! Ms Lim ordered cupcakes for 4/8 yesterday, and i took the peanutbutter one despite my throat. Somebody kill me, i'll just never get well by Saturday.

My PO depends on my MYEs. Im stressed beyond! I heard a Taylor Hicks song, and i hate him okay. But i loved the lyrics.
*twirls around singing
" Everybody needs to be loved, to be loved. "

He threatened to slap me yesterday after spewing out vulgarities in my face. Then he left the dinner-table and slammed doors around the house cursing. Cursing and cursing. I stopped eating. Took money and walked out of the house to see the doctor for my throat, and my mum came running after me. He's not back yet. Don't know when, don't know where he is, don't know what he's doing. Don't want to care. I think, i'm quite tired by all of it. And, this is just the minor part of it all.
*Cue: a silent scream

11:05 PM

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I shall re-live my previous post because i feel like it! Haha don't mind me please!
And again, You heard me. I found myself on this verse.
Psalm 37:5
Commit your way to the Lord, Trust also in Him.
And He shall bring it to pass.
You never ceased to amaze me, over and over again. I once fell to my knees. Tears streaming, voice hoarse from crying, hands bruised from hitting the floor. When i vented it all out, only then i felt Your pain for my hurt.
" No, that trauma you faced was not easy.
And God wept that it hurt you so. "
Remember the poem Gwen gave me?
I could go on endlessly about what You've shown and done for me. And i feel, my magnitude of love for You, it's hard to define it simply in words. If i were a child, and you asked me how much i loved You... I'd plant a big wide smile on my face, exclaiming "I love you THIS much!", and stretch my arms wide open to the furthest they would go.
Then there was something Jane said to me, about her distance from God and how she had forgotten to pray. Well, i don't think there's any right or wrong way to pray. Sometimes i feel, i'm incapable of beautiful literature that could speak of my love for You. But maybe, even the simplest words if intermingled with heartfelt emotions would be it.
" Dad.. I love you. "
Just the truest, most simple way [:

11:00 PM

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Monday, April 09, 2007

Molly C: Hello Charmaine. yes, i'll relink Molly C. HAHAHA.
xD: Nope!
:D: I hope so! Thankyou.
Eeeee: Haha as in, i've seen you before? Okay but thanks yah 8)
:)): I just got a pair from River Island. Or you can check out Zara [:
Venelyn: HELLO SEXY. YES. DANCE CREW HAHA.
Dotdotdot: Mmhmm its layered super-alot. Haha thanks!
Chung: Is meh..
POOPY: Haha but there's other crop-top jackets in Singapore what right? Or you fly to USA to get luh. Hahahaha.
Gwen: GWENNY!
Wheee: I saw the LP one! Its coooool. Baha. Im gonna get the new Relient K album!
Bowbee: Thanks 8) I will.
:D: I have no idea which genre i should go into after Reggae! Haha.
Ruth: SOMEBODY SAW ME DANCING IN THE TRAIN KNOW. O.O

6:22 PM

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Easter Sunday, 8th April 2007.

Met Amanda, Jane & Timmy for breakfast @ Macs early in the morning. And my lovely Gwen was LATELATELATELATELATE. She arrived @ 7.01am when she was the one telling me we should meet @ like 5.30am to pray for Easter harvest. I never cease to be amazed by this girlie, really.
Train with Jane Tor.

Received a text from her: " SAY CHEESE! :D " and i froze in my chair.
*Turns head bewilderedly to the frontsideback looking for Gwen.
And i couldn't see her, so i continued talking to Amanda & Jane and used my hands to cover my eyes.

I think i sounded like a toad because of my throat! I couldnt taste my food. Trained to Expo because KaiBin kept calling me. Found KaiBin in Hall 8. Booking seats for Easter is especially horrible. Everyone just chiongs for rows of seats luh.

Went out to fetch Chevonne. Saw Nison and Ryan. Oh, i know why i always see them already. Because they're always on time/late. HEEHEE. So my little bimbo-partner got a fresh piercing [:

And i love her!

Left to run around in Hall 8 to find Gwen and Vera. Saw tonnnnns of NanHua people, and i was on a high for no particular reason. Just for Easter itself! Was screaming & jumping around like a mad loon, and one of the ushers raised his eyebrows. HAHA. I SAW ITTTT. I laughed even harder. And then Gwen keeps bumping into Mr Jonathan Quek! AND I LIKE, NEVER EVER SEE HIM AROUND IN CHURCH ONE PLEASE. I am so pissed off, he's my ex-coform teacher, i should be the one bumping into him! Haha!

The Easter play was great! And i was trying not to cry @ the cruxification part. Because i cried at the Saturday 7.30pm service already! So i was like, clenching my fists with my black sleeves pulled over. Until the final part where they hammered the nails into his hands, by the second resounding clang of hammer-hitting-nail.. My hands flew up to my face and i buried my eyes into them and cried.

And i felt Amanda swivel her head to look @ me because my action was so sudden. HAHA. I was wiping away tears when Chevonne turned to me and half-laughed half-cried, wiping her own tears away too. Like wow, i really didn't expect that because she's new to church and all 8)

And all 4 of them responded to the altar-call. Chevonne took my hand and like, pulled me to the front please. Haha! I was so glad she responded! Jane too, cause on the train she was telling me she feels like she's not ready to come back to church yet. And she was crying buckets at the altar-call! So Jas and I took them down to the front for their receiving of Christ [: I think, i hoped, God really moved them 8)

Jaslyn and Nicholas and ballooooooooooooooonsssssss!

Went to Hall 7 for the carnival, and there were too many coupons for us to spend. Basically, we blasted all of it on food. TOOMUCH TOOMUCH. So all of N163 who were present sat down to eat! And we surprised Nicholas with his belated birthday thingy!

I remember walking around Hall 7 with Chevonne, arms linked & me bopping along to the Gwen Stefani song. " Sweet Escape " or something. HAHA I THINK ITS SO APPROPRIATE TO BOUNCE TO! Chev was just laughing as we went in search of food.

And there was a debate over which doughnut Jas could eat with the least un-glamness. Hawhaw. Found Bettie and there was an exchange of shrieking and gossip!

And we had too many coupons left over, so Nicholas went to buy Easter eggs for everyone.
This is Jaslyn's new pet! (Pardon the spelling errors) She has a name, has feelings, and has a habit of attacking Jaslyn wherever she goes.

Jas: " I think it hates me. It keeps attacking me. "

Train ride back was hilarious. The spewing of dumb jokes!

Was quite exhausted by the day itself, no idea why. Energy spent on laughter i think. So i was quite mellow after the rest alighted at their respective stops and i trained the remainder of the journey home. I closed my eyes and prayed silently, and opened my Bible.

And again, You heard me. I found myself on this verse.

Psalm 37:5

Commit your way to the Lord, Trust also in Him.

And He shall bring it to pass.

You never ceased to amaze me, over and over again. I once fell to my knees. Tears streaming, voice hoarse from crying, hands bruised from hitting the floor. When i vented it all out, only then i felt Your pain for my hurt.

" No, that trauma you faced was not easy.

And God wept that it hurt you so. "

Remember the poem Gwen gave me?

I could go on endlessly about what You've shown and done for me. And i feel, my magnitude of love for You, it's hard to define it simply in words. If i were a child, and you asked me how much i loved You... I'd plant a big wide smile on my face, exclaiming "I love you THIS much!", and stretch my arms wide open to the furthest they would go.

Then there was something Jane said to me, about her distance from God and how she had forgotten to pray. Well, i don't think there's any right or wrong way to pray. Sometimes i feel, i'm incapable of beautiful literature that could speak of my love for You. But maybe, even the simplest words if intermingled with heartfelt emotions would be it.

" Dad.. I love you. "

Just the truest, most simple way [:

4:53 PM

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Friday, April 06, 2007

):

My throat hurts.

Went to Paragon to do my eyebrows, then met my mum and brother for dinner. I was quiet the whole day because i was moody over my throat. Dont get me wrong, i'm happy!
My soul's bursting at the seams, overflowing with happy smileys at the mere thought of Easter! But it saddens me that i cant sing to worship Him, and its Easter too. It marks the day that turned my life around one year ago.
Its like, my soul's trapped. Pushing, nudging to get out of the box to fall at His feet, to sing a lovesong to Him.

Its that simple.

9:57 PM

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Thursday, April 05, 2007

=/:Haha i ATTEMPT to. But it reverts back to my natural hair, thats why its not STRAIGHT-straight. So.. Actually i don't see any point in straightening my hair, but i still do it -.-
Melissa: Hey love! Yay, i ran into you at the bus-stop again. yeap, relink soon [:
Timmy: Cherry stains cute what. Haha.
Victoria: Sunday dont know whether can train with you anot leh! Talk to you about it soon :D
ValentinaC: Yeah man. Otherwise they'd have cherry seeds all over them please.
^^: I think i'm so gonna flunk my O's! ): Not kidding you. But sigh, thank you. Haha.
Jenn: I got it in San Francisco.
Wheeee: ITS SO NICE. SO NICE. SO NICE. HAHA. I still love it. And, i think the new Linkin Park's better than the old one!
Ruth: Haha! Hello Ruth! I see you found my blog [:
-: HAHA. Eh... Nope. I am pudgy NOW, AND FUTURE TO COME.
Passer: Thank youuuuu! 8) Oh, i just grabbed some random victorian wallpaper from Google. Hawhaw.
ChiLung: I hope [:
-.-: I see my hater's back to spam me. So i've blocked you. Hawhaw.
Amanda: Hey girlie! Haha yeah, i'm nice right. I came to your class to pass you the invite with a 38.8 degree fever!
eeeeeeeee: Thanks for comforting me 8) Do i know you? Haha. Thank you anyway!
Gwen: And, you made my day today! I love you!
Crys: Will do, cryssss [:
Chung: I think Youtube's video quality isn't as good leh =/ I dunno. Haha thats why i use eyespot!
=): I got mine at 139 bucks. Haha.
Chevonne: HAHA. I know. You're a lovely little weirdo.
POOPY: I still cannot get over your adorable nickname you know. AHAH. I got it in San Francisco.

11:15 PM

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I arrived @ school with a slight fever which flew away later! School was fun :D And there was a cockroach in the carton of newspapers.
LY: " Xiao-qiang! "
Van: " Shouldn't it be like, Da-Qiang because the cockroach is big? "

Okay. That was really un-funny. But whatever! Haha! I'm in an uberrrrr-good mood! Met Gwen and went to Bras Basah to get a new bible and stuff. We were walking in CIRCLES around Cityhall area and i was literally laughing my arse off round every traffic light. Gwen says i walk extra-fast when i'm agitated/excited. HAHA.
Rushed to buy Subway and went to BK for bible-study. Then changed and ran to Oschool to dance. But Reggae II were still in the studio -.- So i was at the glass door looking at their routine and trying to execute it. Haha! Bored what. So anyway, missing one session of technique last week DID NOT HELP. Managed to learn all 4 out of the 5 techniques pretty quickly. The last one.. Gah. Need to keep practising. My hips wouldn't cooperate with me today. Lurviese and Ven were teaching me that particular technique and they had to HOLD me and INSIST i move my hips because i kept INSISTING I COULDN'T MOVE IT. It felt so weird to move that direction what! Anyway, i was breathless from laughing. It was super comical.

Ven and I looked like we came from some dance crew, cause we were both in black tops, camou 3-quarts, white sneakers, carrying oversized black bags. HAHA! Bought stuff from M.A.C then trained home. Started dancing on the train when it was empty enough. Then i danced all the way home. I think, i'm nuts.

Blame Easter. Easter gets me high!

Okay, i have a sexy voice from the sore throat now >:( It must get better by next week. Aaaand, i hope i didn't over-exert my back today. The routine for Reggae III is lethal. L-E-T-H-A-L. LETHAL I TELL YOU. Need to up my energy level and groove!
Am going to rampage the cabinet for peanut butter to eat now.

*dances away.

10:52 PM

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Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Face down in the dirt.
She says: "It doesn't hurt."
She says: "I've finally had enough."

I'm absolutely bonkers over The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus! I kept chanting the lines of the song in Amath class today. Haha. Geography was funny, we were talking about flamingoes.
FLAAAAAAH-AAH-MINGOES!
I've a feeling Easter's gonna be awesome. Please, i'm having Macs for breakfast at 6am on Sunday you know? D: I'm probably meeting Gwen even earlier too. I don't even want to think of how early ima wake up leh. Its nutszxsz.
Am feeling much better, at least i can talk now. Yesterday was practically a talk-fast for me. I spoke less than 10 words after i got the fever. Hahahahahahahha. Thanks for all the prayers and "getwellsoon"s!

Labels: Urge to shoot cherries at people.
HAW HAW. THE LAST TIME I ATTEMPTED THAT WAS WITH VALENTINA C -.-

4:33 PM

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Monday, April 02, 2007

Went to school with a sore throat, and talking with the girls during PE didn't exactly help. Haha! I couldn't utter a single word without wincing by lunch. Gwen came up to my class with honeylemon Strepsils! :D Then when school ended, my temperature measured 37.8degrees.
Well, whoopdeedoo. Cabbed home with Charmaine and my temperature's shot up to 38.7degrees in the span of 30minutes.

*slams thermometer on keyboard.

I DON'T LIKE IT!

Oh but on the bright side, i can safely say the words " I'M HOT " without getting whacked by people beside me. Haw haw.

3:08 PM

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Sunday, April 01, 2007

Missed church because of the whole pray-to-ancestors thing-a-ma-jiggy today ): Lunched with the family and my godparents @ United Square's prata cafe. Bought Subway cookies and sat at Ya Kun flipping through magazines with my 9-year old godsister. Haha!

And the adorable godbrother who just went for a haircut. HAHA. No more cute mushroomy hairstyle! So after that, went to Vivo on a shopping spree. Got my red belt at Club Marc and bleached skinnys from River Island. And tons of other stuff.

Okay, actually i had alot to blog about. But he just came in to lecture me on my attitude towards him.

You can't blame me if i run away. I stopped myself the other time. I don't think i'll have the willpower to do it again. Every single word that you utter, it disgusts me. Its an intricately woven web of half-truths and lies. How do you expect me to be what a daughter should be to a father, if you're simply like that.

Labels: I have a limit, you know that? If i choose to run, i will. However useless it may be, because i'd have to face your wrath once again. At least, for that split-second, i have the liberty to feel emotions and that little slip of leaving problems behind. I only wonder, will you drive me to the point where i'm desperate. Desperate for even that single rush of emotions being let out within me, when i get on my feet and attempt to run away from all this?

Sorry for the emo. I had to vent.

9:59 PM

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Nison: EMOSYNTHESIS? It's not a process loh! I don't absorb sunlight to make starch okay! Haha.
^^: Yes, i'm taking my 'O's this year ): Sad right. Haha thanks 8)
Anon: Hahahahahahah! I am thelittlebit cool only!
Junior(:: Acutally, i just ripped it off from one of Google's images. Haha!
Timmy: Righhhhhhhht.
(:: Topshop.
ChiLung: Haha. I forgot whether it was you who asked me whether i was sick that day, and i said no. And he replied: TOWN RIGHT! -.- Goodness, am i that predictable. I think it was LohYee who said that luh.
Kiddo^: Rich sexy and pretty? D: Dont have luh. Haha. And to your question, one wants the simplest things in life! To love and be loved in return 8)
Lala: I use the heating iron. Haha.
Chung: HAHA. You sound like i just made your day.
Ben: WHAT, NO. Okay so even if they look at me, they'l look at what im ADVERTISING FOR, which is still the hotdog. HAHA!
=): The small one. But, its no longer available. Haha.
Amy: Dorothy Perkins and Topshop.
Psby: You're nice! Haha thanks shitloads k [: I'm working on it.
Jane: Haha alright.

1:27 AM

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Thursday, 29th March 2007.

Had an awful headache the previous night. Took about a gazillion painkillers that did nothing to ease it. Hence, i decided it wouldn't heal by Thursday and skipped school! Hahahahhaha. Met Chevonne and headed to Marina to find the top i needed for BennyHinns choir. And Topshop,Zara,Mango and Miss Selfridge simply decided to wipe out all the basic navyblue tops in their stores >:( Gave up and headed to town instead. Walked around Wisma and Far East. Got my bag.
After 898763187765465159517 hours of shopping, Subway-ed for dinner :D And I didn't go to dance afterall cause it was too late =/

Chevonne's a LAUGH. Haha! The entire day was spent laughing. And we had to STOP that because we laughed like bimbos. The number of amazingly weird charms we found in shops were hahahahahahahahha.

Forgive the attire, i was actually planning to go for dance k.

Oh, and the vintage shop hidden at Far East is the coolest! Apart from the fact that, we almost ran out of oxygen in the shop cause its so stuffy there. Went out of the shop hyperventilating on the sudden intake of oxygen. HAHA.